Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ready, set, go

Figuring out where to start (or in this case, how to start) has always been a challenge for me. Whenever I would write a paper in high school or college, I would always know what I wanted to say, but it was the figuring out how to start it out that got me every time. (The same holds true when it comes to cleaning/organizing my house....but that's another story! :)) Thesis statements, ugh, those where the worst! I hated them! Anyway, my point is, I'm finding it difficult to figure out what to say or where to start. Most people tend to journal as things are happening in their lives. I, on the other hand, refused to. I didn't want to face it and wanted to think everything was okay. So going back almost 3 years seems kinda silly, but necessary.

I thought about just starting with telling you about how I met my husband, seeing as how he plays such an intricate part in this process as well, but it just felt too random... Does that even make sense?! I have had this post in my draft for weeks, but I've still yet to complete it. Not sure why really. I think I've just been so emotionally drained over the holidays and since then that I have not had the energy to open up the can of worms that it will inevitably be. (not my husband, but writing about Elli! :)) That being said, this is going to be more difficult, draining, and time consuming than I thought. I suppose it doesn't help either that I've been staying up WAY too's currently 12:25 a.m. Which probably and almost definitely contributes to why I've not had the energy to write lately.... hmmm....

Anyway, I will write. I will. I will lay my heart out there. I will be transparent. I will try to put into words what I'm feeling, thinking and going through. I will write how it's affected us in every aspect of our lives and still does. I will write about my amazing husband and my sweet McKinnley and the {absolute} joy they bring me each and everyday. I will. I will, I will, I will. But first......sleep! :) (12:57 a.m. I'm just saying...)

I will leave you with this, however. Tell me that doesn't make you smile!